this morning had first day of orientation leadership camp. okay.. games weren't exactly very exciting.. and i probably spent more time idling away den being involved in the whole thing.. so probably you guessed i din really enjoy myself la.. whatever. the next thing i know iz when i tried to throw that pail of water, i cut my little finger. ): and was in a way "laughed at" for my idea of going about the game. *ignore no.1*
the rest of it was crap. den lunch den mass dance. well i totally freaking hell dunno any of the dance.. so had to learn. thanks chuanli for being so patient in teaching me and derrick the dance steps.. i managed to learn it more or less, and so did derrick.. even though he kept thinking of giving up but he din (: so good job there!!
but i guess the thing that got me down was when i saw everyone doing the running man like it was easy as ABC.. and there i was struggling to get it right. ): get it right and properly so that my knee wont hurt. it really got me down at the fact that i cant even do a normal person's running man and even up til the extent of doing it in pain. i'm juz upset. *ignore no.2*
i guess it really got me down when my knee started to hurt recently.. ever since physio took a pause.. my knee's been giving my problems.. whatever. *ignore no.3*
after mass dance home. showered. suppose to go down to arvin's. which i did eventually.. well.. my original intention was to CYCLE down.. and it had to pour when i reached home. spoilt my plans and all. upseting *ignore no.4*
so bused down to kovan and since i was busing down, met jon and serene and ze so we could go down to arvin's since i more or less know the way there.
and guess wad. well.. we walked.. and some people juz dun trust and believe that i know the way so we ended up freaking lost. *ignore no.5*
games started and all.. ate a little.. i loved judith's potato salad + macaroni la!! (: yummy yummy!! =) thanks jud!!!
celebrated ze's birthday (: HAPPY BIRTHDAYZE!! =)
well they bought cake for her, i had a slice of my cheesecake given to her as well. okay.. so i guess i might have been too sensitive or wad.. but i felt totally _____ when i saw the cake half eated lying around. *ignore no.6*
stayed up til 2 last night doing up those cards for the seniors. well not all of them turned up which was a pity. but ya.. so serene gave out the cards. well i guess i could have been expecting too much but to see them lying around on the floor? hmmm. *ignore no.7*
played heart attack, and i guess that was the last straw.. that comment really spoiled my whole night.. needless to say i have nothing more to say for myself.. i was juz trying to have some fun and create some fun for everyone.. but whatever. it juz wasn't necessary from whoever said it that i shu bu qi. i really did enjoy myself. but i believe i could have enjoyed it much better. today juz isn't a good day. sorry guys. i did enjoy myself.. but i cannot say anything more other than i'm upset and unhappy at the way things turned out in the end.
the rest of the night whizzed through and i couldn't be bothered with anymore that's happening.. wanted to leave early. but ended up helping to clean up the house. left at 11+? home. i'm glad all these has ended. i regret to say but i cannot deny it.
but still.. thanks serene, arvin and zeling for appreciating the efforts..
and ze! glad you liked the cake (: happy birthday once again.
i juz realised smth.. this christmas i ain't alone (:
i've got chuanli stuck at home.. i've got jon feeling that things aren't necessarily what they seem.. i've got carol who expected christmas to be much better..
i guess NO i'm not gloating at you guys.. but yeah.. i understand how you feel!! cuz i might juz be feeling that way anytime now and den.. but guys, you guys juz rock my up-side down world. and it's made me better to even know that you guys are there when i need you.. esp carol!! thanks for that message on that 22nd.. it really brightened up my night cuz i was really feeling down (:
cheerios guys!! (: true friends i hope and know i can find in you three =)
ok. it's over.. sooo happy boxing day..!!! mr teo says boxing isn't boxing as in fighting.. but it means boxing as in packing everything into boxes after christmas!!!! (: haha.. so in goes those christmas trees!!!
okay.. so christmas din turn out that bad.. except for maybe accident prone for today x) prata for breakfast den we had a long morning stroll at lower pierce reservoir.. and it happened when the trail ended and we were almost on our way back when i pretended to want to kick my dad into the reservoir. i slipped and fell instead. :D hysterical lolx embarassing cannn!!! oh well!!
den go grocery shopping and i baked in the afternoon.. for the track bbq. and i scalded myself when the juz-out-of-oven tray accidentally touched me. freak.. one long line on my hand....... ): whatever. den had dinner at angmokio for vegetarian x)
and the rest of the night was spent at the esplanade.. i love walking in drizzles (:
how i wish fairy godmother will swish her wand now.. and give me everything i want and hope for this christmas season..
but not. only in my dreams
christmas this year sucks ): gonna be a lonely christmas spent!!!!!!! except the exception for breakfast with my family.. yaaaaa.. not looking pretty interesting nor something for me to look forward to.. oh well!!! hope it'll juz turn out better tmr.. somehow someway..
nonetheless, MERRYCHRISTMASTO EVERYONEOUTTHERE(: go enjoy yourself this season of giving and season of joy. hey!! look at the colours!! haha.. gray for the floor, brown for the tree trunk, green for the tree and red for the ornaments.. lastly yellow for the star!!! (: it's a tree lying down. right. HAPPY xmas! x)
with a wave of the wand everything's gonna be alright. i choose to believe.
everything's gonna be alright, everything's gonna be alright. i've fully well convinced myself that. yeah.. maybe i really am? doesn't really matter.. changed blogskin with a new blog.. when history iz not recorded in here, it simply marks a brand new start a brand new beginning yet again.
and i've long concluded.. that yeah.. maybe it really iz crazy that makes me me. and it's only happy that makes me whole. live with it. nothing's gonna change bout it. this world iz juz so fallen and sullen and dull..
i can pretend to be the sun but i'll never be the sun. but whatever it iz i'm given a right to dream my dream of fantasy and hope. the perfect dream of happiness and joy. and the little dream of love.
have you ever been sad til you go hysterical? that's when you start burying yourself in things around you and the things you do.. i've realised.
"Remember, happiness doesn't depend upon who you are or what you have. It depends solely upon what you think."
— Dale Carnegie
Most people don't believe it, but it really is possible to think yourself happy. You start with one happy thought
followed by another and another until pretty soon you're stacking them on top of each other, like layers of joy
bricks. After awhile, you will have built such a solid wall of happy thoughts around yourself that wherever you go,
you'll radiate joy. And all because one day you made the decision that no matter what, you were going to think a
happy thought.